"Any one may judge what a condition I must be in at all this who was but a young sailor and who had been in such a fright before at but a little. But if I can express at this distance the thoughts I had about me at that time I was in tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my former convictions and the having returned from them to the resolutions I had wickedly taken at first than I was at death itself; and these added to the terror of the storm put me into such a condition that I can by no words describe it. But the worst was not come yet; the storm continued with such fury that the seamen themselves acknowledged they had never seen a worse. We had a good ship but she was deep laden and wallowed in the sea so that the seamen every now and then cried out she would founder. It was my advantage in one respect that I did not know what they meant by founder till I inquired. However the storm was so violent that I saw what is not often seen the master the boatswain and some others more sensible than the rest at their prayers and expecting every moment when the ship would go to the bottom."